The weather is changing

The weather is changing.

The weather here in Chicago is much different from the Bay Area. The cold actually surprised me. It’s been a long time since I’ve felt real cold. This is the beginning of the cold that bites your cheeks, making you run for the covers and some hot chocolate.

The cold also brings back body memories from when I lived in New Hampshire and the Northeast. Like the smell of tobacco reminds me of my grandfather, the cold reminds me of growing up, among other things.

The shorter days makes me want to hibernate, but I know that’s not what people do anymore. It really helps me remember that this time of year is the time to go in, to reflect, to introspect. I do plan on doing more introspection here for the winter. I’m resurrecting my blog to do this.

There’s a lot going on here, and I have some ideas about future ministry, but for now, I just think. I reflect. I look at the past, think about what I want to do for the future, and then put the plans in motion to make it happen.

I do miss all my friends in the Bay Area, but I also know moving here was good for me, good for us. Change is hard, people don’t like it, but it’s also part of life, and usually necessary.

I wonder: what thoughts this cold season will bring me? What will Spirit tell me in these days where the Earth sleeps and things are quiet?

 

Lent Poetry: Sleepy

you know it’s time for bed
when you are watching
YouTube
without thinking about it

because right now
that is what I’m doing

and writing poetry

because that’s the
21st century

and my wife is home
and I’m not

so
yeah
time for bed

Lent Poetry: Unfamiliar

3 weeks from now
I will be in a different town
with snow
a lake
and people

In a new house
that will smell the way
only new places have
like bleach and
Pledge
and paint

The cats will hate us
and then explore
the new house
claiming their territories
as we claim
bedrooms and desks

I will look out
of a new window
and wonder about
possibilites
ministries
and magick

I will order groceries
unpack boxes
and decide where
the toothbrush will go

Then I will explore
and find a cafe
with wifi
fancy homemade tea
and a table that
feels comfortable

I will write a poem
there
and I will tell myself
this is home now
but I won’t believe it

then I will return
to our new house
I will cook dinner
in a unfamiliar kitchen

but my wife will be there
and I will hold her
in our new house
which will be
home

Updates: Moving, Lenten Working, and PaganBloggers.com

With Pantheacon now over, the move is becoming much more real. If I didn’t get to see you at Pcon, I apologize, as my back was being super cranky, which made staying in the suite most of the time less stressful. It was, however, an awesome time, as usual, and I’m really glad to have been able to talk with all sorts of folks, use my possessory skills, and even do an initiation!

After resting for a couple of days, we had cleaners come and give a good clean to our kitchen and bathrooms so that the landlord can give tours. We gave notice this weekend, and there will be open houses both days this coming weekend. I do need to do some tidying and some extra packing this week, but the house is clean enough. The gardeners come tomorrow, which will sort out the yard.

Right before Pantheacon, Patheos changed their contract and people found out (or had confirmed) that the company that now runs the site supports right-wing (read: anti-pagan, anti-queer, etc) groups. While I’ve had my own reasons over the years to be disgusted with Patheos, it seems that my spidey sense has been justified.

In response, right before Pcon, my friend Jamie decided to start a pagan blogger’s website: PaganBloggers.com. I’m proud to say that I’ve been accepted as a blogger on the site, and I plan to write about radical inclusion, body positivity, and multi-faith practice. The site has an Indigogo campaign, and while it’s met the initial goal, any additional support will be most welcome! The site plans on opening March 21.

I’ve been trying to figure out what to do for a Lenten working this year. Last year’s working was rather epic, and while I’d love to do something similar again at some point, with the move I just can’t. The other problem is that pretty much all of my altar stuff is packed already. The one thing that came up the other day, though, was to write a poem a day during Lent, and since that’s pretty much sticking in my brain, I’ve decided to do it. Some will probably be posted here, but not all. The best thing is that this is portable, only requires a notebook and pen, and is low-stress. I’m kind of thinking of going to an Ash Wednesday service, I just don’t know where yet.

The wife and I are also thinking about new rituals, since we’ll be spinning up a new coven in Chicago once we’re settled. We have some really great ideas, and it’s given me a project to work on in addition to my Lenten working. Projects are good. Projects occupy the brain.

Still don’t have a place in Chicago yet, but we’ve decided to rent instead of buy for now. Wish us luck!

If you want to visit with me and/or Sarah before we leave, you need to contact me ASAP so we can make arrangements. Otherwise, we’ll have to start doing Google Hangouts!

Moving and Moving Forward

Most of you know by now that the wife and I are moving to the Chicago area in March. There’s a lot of feelings around this move for me: excitement, fear, stress, wonder, and grief. It’ll be sad to leave the Bay Area as we’ve both lived here for over 10 years, built a witchcraft tradition, and made many many wonderful friends. That is definitely the hardest part about this move.

But we’ve also both realized that it’s time for change. We’ve both been a bit stuck creatively, and this will give us a chance to start some things over and try new things: creatively, spiritually, and overall. We’ll be meeting new people, trying new things, and dealing with seasons again. We’ll be closer to the east coast, which will allow us to reconnect with my family and friends from that side of the continent.

It will be different, and we’re both pretty ok with that.

For me, I’ll be figuring out new directions for my ministry and my creative endeavors. The biggest realization I’ve had over the last 6 months is that it’s time to let go of This Week In Heresy. I had originally stopped because I was burnt out. I felt like I was having a lot of the same conversations, just with different people. Finding new interviews had become a chore, not fun or interesting. But as the “hiatus” lengthened into November and December, I realized that TWIH wasn’t going to come back. I have some ideas for other media ventures, and maybe some new podcast-like things, but TWIH is not one of them. The website will stay up as an archive of the interviews I’ve done as they are still a great resource and are still awesome. I don’t regret doing the podcast at all, and it was really cool while I was still into it, but if I’m honest with myself, it’s time to move on to something new.

I’ll still be writing on this blog (and my Dreamwidth blog) and since I’m not doing the podcast anymore, you’ll probably see me write here more. I’m also working on another writing project that I’m not sure when it will be done, but it’s interesting and I like it a lot. I’m also really busy coordinating all the moving stuff on the California side, while the wife is sorting out stuff on the Chicago side.

It’s funny how you know it’s time to move on to something new, and while it will be sad to leave here, I know (and the wife knows) that it’s time.

Happy New Year! (Aaaaaand…we’re back!)

So, we had some technical difficulties with my personal site over the last couple of months, but now I’m finally back! Expect a lot of blogging from me in the next few weeks as a way of dealing with the stress of de-crapifying our house and moving to Chicago!

Yup. For those of you who don’t know yet (which, I’m sure are few), the wife and I are moving to Chicago at the end of February (the weekend after Pantheacon to be precise). It’s scary, exciting, and stressful all at once, which every house move is, really. But I do see a lot of new opportunity for both of us. I’ll talk more about my feelings on it later, especially as it relates to ministry.

But for now, Happy New Year! I hope that 2017 will not be as bad as we all think it will be, or if it is, I hope that we all come together to fight for justice, peace, hope, and freedom.

Many blessings for 2017 from my family to yours!